Wednesday, February 28, 2007

The wedding!

Overall, after going through the photos, I'm good with them. I'm sure I'll get happier as time goes on.....

But after the wedding (the morning after), I was worried - seriously worried. I thought ALL the photos would suck. Of course, I always do this! LOL!

After downloading them and backing them up, I imported them into Lightroom and while I had some serious technical issues with flash (I suck at it), most of the photos turned out well. Or salvageable. I have a few key photos I'm sort of stuck about - should I post them or not kind of stuck....

I also made some pretty serious mistakes with this wedding right in the beginning. I'm not really ready to write them down yet since they are a little too fresh. But hopefully they will like the photos enough to forgive me for the few dumb things I did! LOL!

I think the biggest question that came out of this is: Do I even want to do weddings? While the wedding was a LOT of fun, I didn't have a great time. I was stressed most of the time and worried I was missing all the good shots. At the end of the evening, I felt like I hadn't done a great job. The next day I worried about everything. And on Monday, I had something very stressful happen. (Once again, not ready to talk about it.) And even now, after having edited about 1/4 of the photos, I'm still stressed that they won't like them.

I don't mind pressure, but I hate stress. Pressure being the pressure to do well, be as good as I can, excel, etc. I see pressure as a positive thing. Stress, on the other hand, is negative. It makes me feel bad, makes me worry, makes me freak. LOL! And that's how I'm feeling after this wedding.

There is a possibility of up to 5 weddings for me this year.... Two of these are already committed. The other two are up in the air... Luckily, the two booked are more traditional (as in, guests seated/standing and a normal aisle with a decent view to the couple exchanging vows) so that makes me feel less stressed.

Portrait shoots are different. If they don't work out, it's not the end of the world. You can reshoot them (generally) and they generally aren't once in a lifetime things.



Norma said...

I'm so sad for you reading this post. Looking at your photography, I see stories. Stories of people, places, animals, and of course the growth of your children. Your amazing Andi with the camera.But your right, you have a big decision to make, because having this much stress/pressure every time you do a wedding won't make them fun to do.
I'm so proud of YOU!
NSD ;)

lynne said...

Ok, been reading your blog since we got off the phone. We didn't talk about this issue much but it weighs heavy on my heart, too. As much as I love photography, doing it for others can really zap the fun out of it, and add a huge dollop of stress to boot. It will be interesting to see where you end up in this decision...