Wednesday, December 14, 2005

A loooong (overdue) update!

Gosh! I can't believe it's been almost a month since I've updated.... Ugh! It's been a crazy, crazy month. Where to start.....

Thanksgiving was okay. We went over to mom and dad's house, but unfortunately I must have had some dairy.... Sam was a wreck! I felt so bad for her. And Geoff and Colette. They had never met her and all she did was cry. She was such an emotional and physical mess. This really reminded me of what life was like before I figured out her allergies. I spent about 90% of the time holding her and trying to make her happy. Several people tried in vain to hold her, but she just wanted mommy. I was really quite nervous as to how long it would take for her to get past this, but luckily she was fine (for the most part) the next day....

Just in time for Bonnie, Creed and Claire to come visit us! We had a wonderful time seeing them. I can't get over how mature our little flower girl from the wedding is. She's just a delight to chat with - and Ellie absolutely fell in love with her. (She was so thrilled to wear the nightie Claire gave her as a hand-me-down and wears it as often as we'll let her!) It was so great seeing Bonnie and Creed as well! We definitely don't see enough of each other.

The following weekend we had Tom, Judy, Katheryn and her new boyfriend, Eric, over for Judy's birthday dinner. We had an awesome time - and we all really enjoyed Eric! It's nice to see KT so happy. Not that she's ever really unhappy! LOL!

On Sunday we had Tupper Briggs, a local real estate agent, over along with a team member to take a look at the house and give us a good feel for how long it would take to sell as well as how much we could expect to get for it. We were floored, after expecting an answer of 6-9 months, that their average time to contract was 51 days! Less than half what the rest of the areas is! So we've decided to move out sooner rather than later. *sigh* This is definitely a big decision! But one that will be a good one and certainly much easier on me when showing the house.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Getting Ellie up from her nap

Normally, when Ellie gets up from her nap, Sammie is wide awake and we go in there together. I stick Sam on the rocking chair and she watches me change Ellie's diaper and grins like a cutie!

Lining up the animals

I have no clue why, but when I peeked in on Ellie when she wasn't going down for a nap, this is what I found.... All her animals pushed between the side and the pole on her crib! She had been in her room for her nap for an hour or so, but hadn't gone to sleep. I had to see what was going on and found this! LOL!


I asked Ellie if she needed to "pee potty" and she kept insisting that she didn't. But since it had been 2 hours since she'd gotten up (and who knows how long since she'd gone since she was wearing a diaper), I "forced" her to try.

About two seconds after she got on the potty, she peed. And she immediately stood up.

I asked her to sit back down and try to pee a little more.


"Thereyago" (Like she only did it for my benefit!)

Here is why Sammie sleeping well is a bad thing....

Because I freak out! LOL! Last night she went to bed at 7:45, woke at 8:30 (normal) and then didn't wake again until 5:30! I was so worried that I had to go in there at 4:30 to make sure she was okay.... And she was.

The other thing that's bad is that my boobs are about to EXPLODE! LOL!

But I think I can handle it. Especially when she goes back to sleep and doesn't get up until 9:15! (I just hope she's not getting sick - I think I have a cold. Bleh.)

Thursday, November 17, 2005

I'm an auntie again!!!

Matt and Tanja brought Abigail Fern into this world yesterday at about 1:30pm. She was 8lbs 9oz and 21" long. She's just adorable!

The girls and I went to visit Matt and Tanja and meet Abigail. It's amazing how much Sam has grown and changed since she was that age! Honestly, I'm not one who misses that, although I know I enjoyed it. I love this age (almost 7 months) and older MUCH more.... They are just so much more interactive and inquisitive! It's so much fun!

This photo was shamelessly stolen from my mother....

Potty training sucks

Ellie will do well one hour, bad the next. She'll pee and she'll let me know. Or she'll pee all over the couch. I know she knows what to do! She can hold it for hours and then will pee practically on command.... It's so darn frustrating! I'm just trying to figure out if I should just stick her back in diapers or keep going. Ugh. I don't know! We'll go the rest of the week and re-evaluate on Monday.

But after several days/weeks of frustration with Ellie saying "NO", I cracked down hard and she's doing wondeful! She will sometimes ignore, but she knows that when I raise my voice, she's on the verge of getting in trouble and will do what she was asked.

Sammie got a new car seat! (Doc update, too)

Well, damn! I lead a BORING life if that's the excitement for the day. LOL!

Actually, this is pretty huge because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to buy a super safe one without having to pull the passenger seat way too far forward. But when I put the Britax Roundabout (only goes to 60lbs vs Ellie's which goes to 80lbs) next to Sam's old seat, it was about the same size.... And when I put it in, it was actually a little smaller! WOOOHOOO!! That means I won't be as cramped during road trips!

We also went to the doctor 2 nights ago to talk about her puking up her cereal. After chatting, the doctor didn't seem too worried - just that we needed to be getting her more iron. So would bought some supplements and hopefully that'll do that trick! But I do need to be feeding her more solids.

As for sleep, the night before last sucked. She was up every 2-3 hours. But last night rocked! She woke at 11, 5am and then up for the day at 8:15!!! I got to sleep in! YEAH!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

"Mommy!!! I want to STAND!"

This little girl, who has been standing while propped since 2 months, STILL isn't mobile. Sure, I know Sam's only 6.5 months, but still!!!

She drives me nuts. She gets so darn bored or loses a toy or wants to stand and she lets you know! Ellie, on the other hand, was far more content. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure she would tell us when she wasn't happy.... But she wasn't as vocal about it as Sam. Definitely different personalities - and I LOVE it.

We go to the doctor for Sam tonight to talk about her puking up her cereal. Funny thing is... She ate some of my (non-allergenic) cracked pepper crackers. And she had a little of my (preservative free/allergen free) stew! She's such a complete NUT! She's grabbed my steak in the past and sucked on it. Same with some chicken. What a goofball! But she needs to be getting more iron so I'll see what the doctor has to say.

"Animals go night night" "Nemo touch boat"

Ellie is so funny! When I put Sam down for a nap, I'll nurse her in the rocking chair and Ellie will inevitably come in to say hi or play. Or request a song. Right as you walk in the door, there's a small book case that Chris made and on top of it is a piggy bank and several smaller animal banks. (Zebra, lion, tiger, elephant.) Sometimes Ellie will climb onto the big blue bin that has some clothes that Sam has outgrown and she'll play with the animals....

Today, she came in and started putting them all on their sides, telling them "night night" and kissing them! LOL! It took me a little while to figure it out, but I just cracked up when I saw her do this!

The other thing she's doing is getting stuck on things. A typical conversation:

Nemo touch boat.

Nemo touch boat.

Dada say no, Nemo, no touch boat.

Nemo touch boat.

Dada look Nemo.

Nemo touch boat.

And so on and so on....

While it's amusing sometimes, when she expects you to acknowledge her each time, it gets a little old! LOL!

Now that I've cracked down a bit more on her not listening to me, she's doing SO much better. She listens and doesn't "talk back". Whew! Now that Chris is out of town for a little while, that makes things SO much easier!

Monday, November 14, 2005

Stinkhole Manor is less stinky

I think our foul creature is rotting away. Whew! I'm so glad to be posting this.... I hate the thought of it continuing to stink up our house! Yeah!!! (Now I have to deal with the unpleasant thought of a rotted corpse in our walls. Nice thought. Ugh.)

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Stinkhole Manor update

Well, the rotting varmint in our walls has let up enough on its stench to allow Chris to open the door and watch the football game. Not really sure if that means that Chris is enough of a nut to deal with the reeking creature or if it's actually receding. Hmmmmm....

(And I'm not about to upload the image of a rotting carcass. I thought this was nicer.)

The calm before the puking

Poor Sam! I'm so upset for her! At her last doctor's visit, we were told to get her on cereal to get her some more iron. So I tried her on cereal that weekend and *puke*.... it all came back up. I wracked my brain to see what I could possibly have eaten (Wendy's? Something else?) and couldn't think of anything but the cereal and Wendy's. So I held off and just got her eating some squash. She finally started eating that.

Then today I tried cereal again and about 2 hours later.... *vomit*. Ugh. So I'll get her into the doctor as soon as I can to figure out what's going on! This sucks!

But on a positive note, we had a GREAT night last night. She slept from 8:30-11:30pm and then woke again at 5:30am! She didn't get up for the day until close to 8am! Chris let me sleep in and took care of the girls so I could try to shake off whatever I seem to be getting. It was great!

Ahh, my poor allergy girl. I hope this isn't anything serious!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

One step closer to Crested Butte!

I'm so excited! After a HUGE brouhaha, Chris finally accepted a position with a company called Web Visible. Although he's going to be traveling more than if he had stayed at MNGI, I think this might give him some fun, interesting opportunities.

Next on the list: Selling our house!! WOOOHOOO!!!

Another Sam sleeping update

It's going okay.... Not great, not horrible. We have some days that are wonderful - and nights to match. And others that aren't. Last night wasn't fun.... The longest time in a row she slept was 3 hours. The rest was 1-2 hours. *yawn*

But I've figured out a "concoction" that works well to settle her tummy and help her sleep. (We ran out of some of it yesterday.) Mostly it's Colic Ease - this stuff ROCKS. I love it! And the other stuff is Cocyntal. This stuff is great, too. The Colic Ease will settle her tummy and the Cocyntal helps with her gas. I'm going out today to get more of the Cocyntal before I go crazy! LOL!

She's reaching and sitting and doing awesome! I'm so happy that she's so much happier now that I've cut so much from my diet and gotten her sleep mostly figured out. I'm still frustrated from time to time, but it's nothing compared to the first 6 months.....

Terrible twos

I think Ellie is hitting her terrible twos now! She's saying "No" to everything and not sharing nearly as much as she used to. It's so frustrating.

She's doing okay at potty training. She will pee a *tiny* bit in her pants (she still won't wear big girl panties) and then stop and pee in the toilet. Then she'll want a new pair of pant.... We're going through them way too fast! Ugh!

She's still as cute as ever, though! LOL!

Friday, November 11, 2005

My photoshoot went great!

Not only were Mark, Julie and Matt GREAT subjects, but I learned an immense amount during this shoot! I thought I'd start recording the things I learned here on my blog....

  • When searching for the best light, have someone follow you with their face as you walk around them. This was amazing when I had Julie do it - all of a sudden I could SEE the most amazing difference in her face with the light. I was so pleased about it!
  • All kids are really different - I thought Matt wouldn't mind getting a little dirty and playing, but that's not what he's like. He likes keeping clean. I still ended up with some great shots even if they didn't turn out the way I envisioned!
  • Go with the flow and don't overthink things. Although I think that trying new things and thinking too hard about them for a little while is a good thing - I think it's faster to learn that way - in the long run, it's best to go with instinct. And there are times when I find that surprises come out because of that.
  • In this image, for instance, I was thinking I would get a more "formal" shot. But instead, I think I got a well posed (in terms of where people were placed), but more candid image. There is something sweet about this photo that I like very much!
  • The "sweet light" of the sun as it is setting doesn't last long, but it doesn't disappear as quickly as I expected! This makes for some gorgeous light and color!

I know there was more, but I can't think of it right now. I'll add more as I think of more!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Ellie potty training update

pee training is going really well. We started on Monday and just said "no more diapers unless sleeping" and she had one small accident Monday, a medium one on Tuesday and another today. (We didn't train on Wed. because of hte pooping issue below.) She's just been GREAT....

The two problems I have:

  • She will NOT wear big girl panties! I tried taking her out to buy some with me, but the ONLY kind I could find in 2T were the Gerber ones. Nothing fun like Pooh or whatever... (I found a ton in 4's, but those are HUGE on her.) I'm going to try a few more stores and see what I can find.
  • She won't poop while potty training. She holds it. She "tries" and I've tried bribing her with something GOOD, but she doesn't poop. I did NOT want her to get constipated so we put the diaper back on so she would poop. (She did.) I'm putting Karo in her sippy today so hopefully that'll make it more "necessary".

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Well, on the positive side - it's not a skunk

But it looks like we're going to have a rotting carcass in our house for a while. Bill, our nanny's husband, was nice enough to come over and check it out.... After smelling *whew* and looking around, it looks like it's probably NOT a skunk and he said that if it were his house, he'd wait to see how long it smelled. If it got worse, he'd come help us get it out. If not, we should just let the thing rot.


Sam's got another tooth!

I'm shocked that her teeth are coming in so quickly - and easily! I think it just might have been uncomfortable for her for a total of 30 minutes! LOL! It's going to be so cute seeing her with teeth... I'll be interested to see how quickly the others come in! (She looks so upset in her picture! Poor thing!)

On a side note, Sam's sleeping is really all over the place. Last night wasn't quite as good as I would have liked.... She went down at 9:15, up at 11:30 for 45 minutes, down until 1:30 then up almost for real at 6am. I took her into bed with me and we slept for another 45-60 minutes, but certainly not good. But the night before she slept for 12 hours with only waking 3 times. But it's still 100% better than it used to be!

Why do I want to move?!? (caution: many expletives)

From a post on 11/9/05:

Seriously, it sucks. Remember our septic tank issue? Or the two floods we've had? Probably didn't know this, but we HAD to redo the kitchen because the dishwasher broke before we started trying for kids.... I'll list 'em out later for your information and amusement....

What's the problem now? WE HAVE A DEAD FUCKING SKUNK IN THE WALL! And where is my husband? Same place he was when the septic tank broke - in FUCKING LOS ANGELES. And his way of saying goodbye? "I love you honey. Oh, that smell is making it from the basement to the first floor. Can you take care of it? Bye!" That was at 5am. I've been up since!!!!

Here are some of the things we've had to deal with since buying this house less than 5 years ago:

  • Replace dryer
  • Dishwasher dies. Call out repairman, can't fix it. Can't pull it out without tearing out the counter - they built this fucking 1972 (it was on the dishwasher!) machine into a 1991 built house. Idiots. We had ordered a new dishwasher - it was TOO DEEP for the counters. The counters were for a bathroom, not a kitchen. Whole kitchen needs redoing unless we want to fix a stupid 1972 dishwasher.
  • Stuck in our house because of a blizzard for a week at 6 months pregnant
  • Seal breaks on 4 windows in livingroom - total to fix? Well over $8000. Not gonna happen.
  • Starts to smell in basement. Come to find out that the last people who pumped our septic tank only pumped the overflow, not the whole thing. Well, that filled up - and then it backed up into the crawl space. Chris left town and I had to deal with it, a newborn and no toilets for two days. $300 to fix (not as much as originally quoted) and another $2000 to clean up the raw sewage. Fun.
  • Flood in basement. Covered by insurance, but still $10,000 worth of damage
  • Mice everywhere. Call exterminator and got it fixed.
  • Flood in Sam's room. Not too bad
  • More mice - and something large. And my husband tosses poison in the crawlspace (the girls can NOT get in there) and voila! No more large thing crawling around. Now it's a fucking DEAD thing *I* have to deal with.

Okay, I think I actually feel better. Well, at least not as angry. Off too figure this crap out.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Taking portraits today!

Today is the second set of "professional" portraits I'm doing.... This is for a co-worker of Chris' and her hubby and son. I'm pretty excited, but still a little nervous. I've been reading a TON on natural light photography as well as posing people so we'll see how it turns out! Julie and Mark know that they are guinea pigs so hopefully they are patient and the photos turn out like I'd like!

Sam is sleeping better!

Well, we've had a few nights of Sam sleeping well. Hopefully this is a trend that continues! Even though it takes a few times of me going back in there before she stays down, once she does, she's down well lately. Like last night, she was up about 3 times before 10pm (she went down at 8). But then she only woke at 3:30 before she was up for the day at 6:30am! Yeah!

I need to copy all my old posts from my other blog over here - one of these days!!!

Saturday, November 05, 2005

My new blog

How many others have started their new blogs with that title?! LOL!

You'll be seeing this blog get a LOT of posts pretty quickly. I'm planning on moving all my blogs from MSN to here. I think that'll make it easier to update and add since I am constantly having to log out and log back in for MSN. Bleh.

So what's this blog about? Well, it's probably boring to most - I'll be talking about my girls (6 & 28 months), my life, my husband and photography.... So great information for me and my family, but probably nothing exciting to anyone else!!!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

We have a tooth!!!

I am actually GIDDY about Sam having a tooth! Which may seem odd for someone exclusively breastfeeding.... But Ellie was HELL (and still is) when she's teething.... Sam's tooth was a complete surprise! I LOVE THAT!!!!

Soooo.... Here's the sleeping update. I'm not going to post the actual schedule we had (it's so damn long), but here's a recap of her old one:

  • 8-11pm - Put down up to 5 times before sleeping more than 45 minutes
  • 11pm-8am - Up to nurse and calm back to sleep every 1-2 hours - generally 8 times a night
  • 8am-8pm - Up to 5 naps, none lasting more than 45 minutes, most around 20

Result: Cranky baby most of the time - ESPECIALLY at night


  • 8pm - 12am - to bed. May get up once or twice before midnight to nurse, but goes RIGHT back to sleep
  • 12-8am - Up twice, maybe three times to nurse and go right back to sleep. We might have one session that takes 40 minutes, but generally it's pretty fast.
  • Daytime - 2 long (1-2.5 hour) naps with a possibility of a late afternoon 30 minute nap

Result - Happy baby except when she's tired!!!!

I've been following the No-cry Sleep Solution for now. We still have a ways to go as she will nurse to sleep almost every time... We'll work towards breaking that habit soon. We will still have some rough nights from time to time (and I'm sure I'll jinx myself and tonight will suck), but overall.... things are 100% better!

But now that she's sleeping well, Ellie is teething and she is not going to sleep easily at all. Ah, well! That's just the way it goes!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

My life has focused to a pinpoint.....

And that pinpoint is Sam. Everything else is a concentric circle around Sam and as you get further away, things become less important until they just drop off my radar. But that ring of concentric circles that are important in my life has gotten smaller and smaller.... There is very little I care about outside this small ring of things right now.....

What am I trying to say? I realized that Sam turned 6 months old on Saturday. I have been dealing with sleep issues, allergies, fussiness and more for 6 months. Most everything has been solved or at least dealt with, but the sleep issues are still there - rearing their ugly head. The other night, after trying to get her down for 3 hours starting at 8pm, I lost count of how many times she woke during the night. I got to about 9 and then couldn't focus anymore. It was then that I knew that my number one focus had to be getting this solved.

As a reminder, we were on our way there until a week and a half ago when she went into the ER. Since then, things have been bad, almost worse than before. So I went out and bought some books on sleeping and this is my focus in life right now.

That and trying to get Sam to eat. She dropped from 40% to 25% in weight and 75% to 50% in length - and the doctor feels this is because she won't eat solids. Yup, her two incidents with me feeding her and her getting violently ill have screwed up her want to eat. (She LOVED food the first 3 times we gave her some.) So we're working on that, too......

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know why I'm not around much. I check in when I can, but I often can't muster up the time or inclination to post more than once or twice a day. I think about everyone, but just can't post.....

Wish me luck getting this one piece fixed. I just feel that getting Sam onto a good, happy sleep schedule will allow me to focus on the rest of my life - the other things I need to be thinking about. So for now, I need to focus only on that.

Six months is too long let this going on. I won't let it happen for 6 more.

I miss everyone. I miss my life

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

My other allergy girl: Ellie's allergy appt

So, today we went to an allergy appt to see if Ellie was still allergic to eggs and peanuts... She's more allergic to eggs than before (didn't know it was possible to get less then more) and she's very allergic to peanuts and pecans. (Not surprised at the peanuts. And she's never been tested for pecans so I wouldn't have known.) Mildly allergic to other nuts.

While I'm certainly not surprised at the results that she's still allergic, I was bummed to see that eggs had gotten worse. We go back in a year to get her re-tested. But honestly, these allergies aren't as bad as soy and dairy so I'm totally fine with them. (She can have trace amounts of egg in her diet and be fine. Nuts we completely avoid.)

On a different note completely, we're going to see the Winnie the Pooh show this weekend and she's completely jazzed! (I am going to put Sam in the snugli and hope that she does okay with all the noise.) It should be a blast!

The real truth: I poisoned Sam on Saturday (Sam ER update)

So.... I've been wracking my brain on what could have sent Sam over the edge on Saturday night.... And couldn't come up with anything but Rice Cereal. But, as most of you know, rice is VERY non-allergenic. So that just didn't quite seem right.

Then this morning I was talking to a friend and she asked, "What's in the rice cereal?" I answered, "Well, rice of course!"

Then I thought of the fact that I never looked at the ingredients! Dumb!!! What's the second ingredient?!?!? SOY oil-lechithen! HOLY FUCKING SHIT! How STUPID am I not to think there would be SOY in the damn rice cereal. So I feel really dumb, sad, and relieved that it's not a rice allergy....


Lesson learned. Poor Sam!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Quick update on everyone

Gosh, I'm so far behind.... Since it's so early in the morning, I'm just going to put down several notes to remind myself what I need to update:

Sam sleeping
Sam rolling over for real
Sam sitting
Sam small amount of lunch meat in my diet
Sam rice cereal
Sam ER visit

Ellie potty
Ellie counting to 12 (10.10.05)
Ellie "wife"
Ellie "lettuh crahckuh"

I hear Sam. Must run.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Update on Sam.....

I'm not going to post a full update yet - I want to wait a little while for things to even out - but I wanted to let you know that things are improving a bit. She is waking far less at night and sleeping a little better. Her naps have shortened dramatically - and she's obviously still tired. But I'm sleeping better, too, so I'm quite a bit happier!

As soon as we know where this will all land, I'll let you know what I did. But I will say this, I read and re-read what everyone said and tossed out everything I was doing and tried a TON of different things. Even things I said I never would or had already tried before. I decided that I should start from scratch..... And it's helped.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Sam's sleeping....

From a post on 9/29/05:

I was convinced that once we got Sam's food all figured out, that she would magically start sleeping better at night. Well, I was wrong. And I am at my wits end and sick of having crappy sleep for weeks on end. Or is it months? I can't remember.

This is going to be long so please bear with me!

So, here is our day routine and a big part of why I'm *soooo* frustrated at night:

  • Wake whenever (8-9am, generally)
  • Play in exersaucer, on floor - very independent (1.5-2 hours)
  • Rock and feed her, wake her slightly, put her down in the swing in her bedroom to nap.
  • Music going (sometimes sounds), fan going slightly, swaddled (so she doesn't scratch) and she goes RIGHT to sleep (1.5-2.5 hours)
  • Wake & play some independently, some with me watching Ellie, a major variety at this time (1-1.5 hours)
  • Same routine to go to sleep - (sleeps for 1.5-2 hours)
  • Wake and play, mostly with me - more needy, but not bad. May play for 2 hours and then need another nap
  • Same routine for sleeping - sleeps only 20 minutes.
  • Dinner time for the family.....

And that's when things get bad. I then will try the SAME routine that works like magic all day long and it will take me 3 hours on most nights to get her down! She will NOT play by herself for more than 5 minutes and she's showing all signs of being tired. I'll rock her, put her down, she'll sleep for 5-20 minutes and wake back up. Still VERY tired.

I've tried:

  • Not letting her sleep as much during the day - no change
  • Feeding her rice cereal at night - no change, but when she had too much, we had a VERY scary incident so won't be doing more cereal 'til she's 6.5+ months
  • Turning on a soft light (since that's the ONLY change from day to night in her room) - she's more awake!
  • Different music - no change
  • no music - wakes immediately
  • I stay in there forever - she wakes 5 minutes after I leave
    Put her in her crib - no go
  • Chris putting her down - she cries and won't go down
  • Trying to get her to sleep MORE during the day - no change
  • Fussing it out - *I won't let her cry it out*, but if she's just fussing, I've let her go. It generally turns into all out crying after about 10 minutes.

I think my frustration lies in the fact that I'm doing everything the same and I don't understand why she won't go down at night, but she does during the day! And generally at night, she'll wake several times until about 2am even if I DO get her down and it's only from 2-7 that she actually sleeps with only waking once or twice. And I consider that a GOOD night. (She almost never sleeps longer than 3 hours and never longer than 3.5)

I'm going out today and I'm going to buy the Fisher Price aquarium for her bed and try that. I just don't have any clue what to do next! All I really want is for her to have a routine at night. I don't care if it's me nursing her to sleep or whatever... I just need her to sleep!

Any suggestions are MORE than welcomed! TIA!

Sleepless in Colorado. *yawn*

PS On a side note, she's the happiest baby ever now! It's hard to get mad at such a smiley, happy baby. Maybe she's just making up for lost time?!?! GRRRRR.

An Ellie update

i realized I haven't posted much about her lately with Sam being so tough!!! So I thought I'd brag on her a bit.

She's doing really well! We've been talking about potty training, but not pushing it at all. We instituted the m&m rule (1 for trying, 3 for peeing, 5 for pooping) and almost every night this week she's peed in the potty - HER asking, not us! I was asking constantly and she kept saying "No" so I stopped and now she's starting to ask...

It's so cute - when she starts peeing, she'll look up from her magazine (generally Sports Illustrated or The Week... LMAO!) with a sly grin on her face to see if we're listening and then grin HUGE when she sees how excited we are for her! It's adorable!!!

She's also really great when we have a tough day with Sam. She'll play by herself and won't whine and complain at all.... I expected some sort of lashback, but nope! She's just a delight.

And she is talking up a storm. It's so much fun - I think she grasps a new concept about language every day!

Oh, and finally, my very unaffectionate girl has turned into a VERY affectionate toddler! It's so sweet. I was thinking it was a phase (that's why I never posted about it), but the last two months have been hugging and kissing and sitting in laps and... being a doll!

I feel very lucky.

Monday, September 26, 2005

We officially have ROLLING!!!

I'm sooo excited. Sam has rolled several times in the last month, but today is the first time she's rolled more than once - and it's been several times! By jove, I think she's got it!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Going to a nutritionist

Well, I got some trace dairy/soy in my diet the other day and yesterday was pure hell for Sam. Poor thing! I'm not even going to try the Nutramigen....

Anyway, once I realized that even trace amounts are not good, I knew that going to a nutritionist was a must.... I'll let you know how it goes!

3 months in - weightloss update

Well, on June 21st I weighed and measured myself and here I am 3 months later and although I'm losing, I'm certainly not losing as quickly as I'd hoped i would. Bummer.

BUT! I am losing! And it's relatively steady. I've hit a few plateaus, but I am just patient and my body catches up.... And with my crazy diet because of Sam, I'm actually pretty proud! I'm currently trying once again to figure out what I can eat and what I can't.... Sam is allergic to dairy, soy, eggs and it was recommended that I avoid nuts and shellfish. I go to a nutritionist in about 1.5 weeks and hopefully she can help me figure this all out.....

In the meantime, here are my stats:

21-Jun 21-Sep Inches lostweight 190.5 180.5 (was down to 178.5 2 days ago)
left thigh 25.25 24.75 0.5right thigh 25.125 24.75 0.375hips 44.5 43.75 0.75waist 40 39 1chest 35 34.5 0.5breast 43 41 2neck 13.5 13.125 0.375 5.5" - Total inches lost!

As I mentioned, my weight was less a few days ago, but I counted today's weight. Only about 20lbs to go. I can't wait to get there!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

I figured out a yummy breakfast! Why this is good and bad....

I was laying in bed last night thinking, "I'm going ot really miss scrambled eggs with stuff in them for breakfast.... I wonder what I could replace the eggs with? Tofu? Nope, that's soy. Cauliflower? Nope, gassy. HEY! Potatoes!"

And I looked at the package of hashbrowns I have and it's 12carbs for 1/2 cup....

So I used about a cup and scrambled up some hashbrowns with low fat sausage and left over squash - and gave some to Ellie!

You see, that's the great thing. She's allergic to eggs so we've always had different breakfasts! So I was able to give her some of mine - and she loved it!

And that's the bad thing... I made it thinking "1/4 for Ellie, 3/4's for me!" Wrong! She LOVED it so it was half her and half me.... And she STILL wanted more! LOL!

So actually, this is going to be good from that standpoint. (Oh, and it was yummy, yummy.)

Andi (who actually got about 7 hours of sleep with only having to get up twice - a first in about a month)

Monday, September 19, 2005

Sam's allergist appt..... I *ASKED* her not to be allergic to....

eggs! But did she listen? NOOOOOOO...... *grumble*

Okay, so here's how it works.... This doctor does scratch tests. This sort of surprised me after what Heather (Ben & Ollie's mom) said. She tried to find someone in Dallas to do it, but couldn't. But when you scratch test infants, they don't always show an allergy. For instance, I'm 99% sure of the soy allergy, but it didn't come up. But because I had such a good case for it and she's allergic to milk, he's not surprised.....

But with wheat, it could be something else in the cheerios that caused it. Like (dumb me) the strawberries, blueberries or raspberries. He said it's very unlikely that wheat is the cause of her eczema breakout - that's extremely unusual. So I should add in some bread and keep an eye on her.

As for eggs, they are officially out of my diet. Along with dairy and soy. But he also suggested, since they are so common, to cut out all nuts and shellfish, too. *waaaahh!!!*

But the good news is that I can start adding in trace amounts of soy/dairy/egg into my diet. For instance, cakes. YUM! LOL! Or things (like taco meat seasoning) that have trace amounts of dairy. Or thing cooked in soybean oil. It's the major things that are out. That opens things up SO much for me.

Breakfast is going ot be a tough one.... I always eat eggs.... Does anyone have any low carb suggestions for breakfast? Or low carb toppings for bread? (Not jelly, jam.) I find that when I eat cereal (which I'd have to have with rice milk - bleh), I get hungry way too quickly. I'm thinking of finding some good meats to snack on for breakfast..... and maybe some whole grain bread. I'll also look for some whole grain cereals and see how that does. (Higher fiber helps me stay fuller longer.)

So it's back to redoing my diet again! But now I have answers and maybe cutting out eggs will help with some other issues we're having. (Like not sleeping well at night. You never know! Or extremely smelly farts.)

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Damn it!!! Wheat, too?!?

Well, I'm starting to suspect that Sam has a wheat allergy, too. Nuts and eggs pass through breastmilk, but I've been eating those since day 1 and her eczema was clearing up and was almost gone. Then this week I discovered Cheerios with fruit and that was my new snack.....

And Sam's eczema is flaring again! It's not nearly as bad as when I added in soy, but it's happening for sure....

She's also been VERY fussy and very gassy. So I'm starting to think about cutting out gassy foods - namely broccoli, cauliflower and onions. I might just cut back on onions, but the other two I will cut out until after they get out of her system....


Thursday, September 15, 2005

Ellie words and what she said to me!

She told me "i love you" 2 days ago - my heart melted!!!

Some words she says and how she says them:

eeyore is OE

doing great, going through growth spurt

Dairy, soy, and rolling over! (Sam)

eczema cleared up after cutting out soy

dairy is out completely - happy baby

rolled over 3 days ago, rolled again today!

horrible sleeping at night, great during the day - most of the time

Monday, September 12, 2005

Sam's followup allergy appt....

I decided to go back to the pediatrician just to chat about allergies further... I've completely cut out soy and milk and have seen a remarkable difference! Her skin is SO clear after cutting out the soy. And her demeanor is so great compared to the milk..... I also got some samples of Nutramigen to see if she's okay with the soy proteins in there. Nope, not going to formula, I just want a backup in case I get dairy or soy in my diet accidentally. (I'll pump, too.)

We are also going to an allergist on Monday to make sure there aren't any other allergies luking that are causing her a few additional minor issues. I know it could still be milk getting out of her diet, but I still want to check. And talk about how allergic she may be. Can I get trace amounts? Or none?

We are also going to try adding in rice cereal at nights. We have MAJOR issues with sleeping at night. She's great about napping during the day - 1.5-2.5 hours for two naps! But at night, she won't sleep by herself. She's practically attached to me - and literally at times. And she's kicking in her sleep and waking me constantly. I hate cosleeping - I just don't SLEEP! We need to figure this out.... *yawn* I can't tell you how many times I've started feeding her and woken and hour or more later with her still on the boob. Not a habit I want to start!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Sam's 4 month checkup

She's doing well! She's dropped a little on her percentiles from 2 months, but she's UP for her weight from 3 months! She was 25" (about 75%) long and 12lb 2oz (25%) for weight. Developmentally she's doing GREAT and she's VERY strong. I'll even let her grab the OUTSIDE of the exersaucer and she'll just stand there!

I talked to the doctor about the milk allergy and we talked about soy. And while I was there, I realized that this *really* bad outbreak of eczema coincided with my upping of soy. *sigh* So I'm cutting out ALL dairy and ALL soy for the next 2 weeks and we'll see where she is then. If she's all better, I'll add soy back in and see what's up. If she reacts, it's out for good. Then I'll try adding in trace amounts of dairy (like in breakfast bars and random stuff) and if she reacts, it's out for good, too....

If she's NOT doing well enough, I'm going back to the doc and talk about getting her tested for other allergies that go through the breastmilk. (Eggs, nuts, wheat, etc.) If she's highly allergic, we'll evaluate at that time and see whether I cut EVERYTHING out or if I just switch her to that stupid expensive formula. I'm not even going to think about it yet - or predict what I'll do.

But she's doing so great (for the most part - still some fussiness that I attribute to either soy or some left over dairy) that this is all worth it. It's funny, I'm not really all that worried/upset about changing my diet. Only from the standpoint of making sure I get the right nutrients to keep the milk good for her. Not the reaction I would have thought I'd have!

Quick Sam update

I think pictures are worth 1000 words.... And these photos show that. The first one is while I was still eating dairy (This is a typical picture. It was almost IMPOSSIBLE to get her to smile without someone helping....) :

And this second one is just a week or two later without dairy (I can't get over how many smiley, happy pictures of her I have taken in the last 2-3 days!!! And when I looked at her this morning, I SWEAR she's got a chubbier face! I know her legs have a lot of chunk and rolls on them now... It's a TRIP!) :

Anyway, I'm just reveling in how happy she is. If only...... I had done this sooner....

Ellie's nightmares - a thing of the past!

Or was it nightmares? I thought it was, but then the other night she complained "tractor dirt" "leg hurt" "beep beep" "leg hurt". I assumed that she was having a bad dream that the tractor was hurting her leg.... But then I thought, "What if it's growth pains?"

I gave her motrin and she slept through the night! That's the last 4 nights.... AND I measured her - she's grown and INCH since her 24 mo appt (2 months ago)! So, I guess that is what's going on.... (And I know it was just the motrin helping her sleep - she had been given stuff noses before and that helped her sleep, but she still woke from "nightmares" - or leg pains)

Monday, August 29, 2005

I can't believe dairy had such a horrid effect on Sam!

I think I may have figured out my formerly unhappy baby..... I am literally tearing up typing this I'm so happy....

I haven't really talked about this at all, but Sam's weight percentiles have been dropping since birth. She started at 45%, dropped to 35% at 1 month, 25% at 2 months and during my accidental visit at 3 months (didn't need to go until 4), she had dropped to the 10%. Not good - at all... And when I weighed her 1.5 weeks ago, she was still only about 11.5lbs. Off the charts - in the low direction - at almost 4 months.

As you also know, she's been a cranky, needy baby almost from the get-go. And very much a mama's girl. No one has been able to hold her for more than a few minutes without her crying - almost from the beginning - with a only few "good" episodes here and there.

Well, last week, I decided to cut all dairy. Only because I had heard that it bugs some babies (and the other April mom's already had) and I thought it might clear up her eczema. Instead, she's actually gained a POUND in the last week! And her demeanor has completely changed!

Today, a girlfriend of mine came over and she asked to hold Sam. All I could think is that last week I would have said, "She'll probably cry." And this time, Teresa held her for 20 minutes.... And I only took her because she needed a diaper change! She's happy now!

She's hardly crying unless she NEEDS something. She has baby fat rolls on her thighs now! She's smiling more and she's just looking and acting so much healthier! (She's always been fine developmentally so I wasn't freaked about that, but I was watching closely.)

Anyway, after worrying about this daily since her 3 month appt, I am JAZZED about her 4 month appt on Thursday to see how much weight she's *really* gained!

Oh... *knock on wood* that this isn't all a fluke.


PS I can tell my milk supply has changed - it's much higher - like she's needing more and I'm making more.

PPS Oh! And I forgot to mention - she takes 2 REAL naps now, too! One in the morning, one in the afternoon... each for about 2-2.5 hours (Although the afternoon one today was only about 45 minutes. That's okay! i have a HAPPY baby!)

Ellie is using verbs a LOT!

It's so funny.... She's constantly saying new things, but lately it's been 3 word sentences.... Momma like coffee. Bobo like coffee. Dada like coffee...

Pooh like honey....

You get the idea!

And when she got yelled at for hitting daddy's car with a stick:

Bobo don't hit daddy car!

I am floored watching her figure this stuff out!

Monday, August 15, 2005

Ellie took a faceplant a week ago

The poor thing fell smack on her nose and forehead and scraped her knee when she was out walking with dad and KT.... She's a trooper, though, and was more upset because dad was holding her than she was for scraping her nose!

Monday, August 01, 2005

Is Sam teething?!?

I sure hope not! OMG! Last night SUCKED. I had forgotten how bad Ellie was about teething - she would just scream and cry. And I'd dose her with Tylenol every 4 hours.Bleh....... And it looks like that's happening with Sam. I am NOT excited about this!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Sam's 3 month checkup

So... I went into the doctor's office on Monday for her three month checkup and got quizzed:

Does she clasp her hands together? Yes
Does she smile? Yes
Does she squeal? Yes
Does she laugh? No, not yet, but she squeals a lot
Does she hold her head up? Oh, yeah
Wait.... she's four months, right?!? Uh, no, she turned 3 months 2 days ago!

Turns out they don't do 3 month appts! LOL! So she's almost at a 4 month level. She's tracking me from miles away and LOVES staring at Ellie, too. She's closer to laughing even since Monday (2 days ago). AND!!!!

SHE ROLLED OVER TODAY! OMG I was SO shocked! I put her down for tummy time and she will generally push up really hard on her legs so that they are almost 90 degrees from her body - and she just rolled to her back! Wow... (Ellie was 5.5 months.)

The biggest concern, though, is her weight. Her length was 24" and her weight was 10lb 9oz, which is quite low for her age. (She's been in about the 40th percentile and she's dropped to closer to 20%. She needs to be maintaining her percentiles.)

But she's eating like HELL right now - so I'm *really* hoping it's a growth spurt. We'll find out soon.

She's also starting to look a bit like Ellie when she smiles and grins. It's kinda fun! I have the feeling that they will resemble each other more and more as time goes on. They are both so darn cute!

Ellie is talking up a STORM!

Gosh, it's just AMAZING how much Ellie is talking now! At her 2 year appt, she maybe had 30 words (spoken). Within two weeks she was saying 3-4 word sentences! We were at the condo and she was running around onthe bed while I was feeding Sam. She was babbling and I finally started listening to her - "I get cake. I get you cake." I was floored!

She's also saying "Winnie the Pooh". Or rather, Weeenie da Pooh. LOL! And Sissy (or Seeeseee) for sister or Sam. She's also being more defiant and not really responding to discipline so Chris and I need to figure out better how to handle this - especially me. Ugh. It can be frustrating when I'm feeding Sam and she's not listening. I think cracking down really hard for a few days might make a world of difference.

We've also sort of started potty training. I need to take the bull by the horns on this one and really hit it hard. Hopefully I can do this next week.

General update - weightloss

I've lost probably 4 or 5 lbs since I last updated. Which isn't enough... Hopefully now that i have the jogging stroller I can get into better shape and get into a better routine. I need to really get serious. It's so much easier in CB. I can't WAIT 'til we move!

Monday, July 11, 2005

"I get you cake"

I am FREAKING out! LOL! 2 weeks ago, Ellie was adding a word in here and there.... Now she's saying 4 word sentences!!! She's really working on two word sentences mostly ("My bank (blanket)", "Pooh fly", "read book").... and those are about a week old. It's wild how quickly she's starting to talk. YEAH!!!

I realized she was saying complete sentences when I was laying in bed at the condo. I was feeding Sam and Ellie was running back and forth on the bed saying something... When I finally listened, she was saying "I get you cake. I get cake. You get cake." It was soooo cute!

And it's so cute how proud she is when you figure out what she's saying. I love my little girl!!!

Sam can stand!

It's crazy! Sam is soooo strong! You can just lean her against your hand or even hold one hand and she'll STAND up!

It looks like Chris is holding her up, but I swear he's not. As my doctor said, I'm in trouble!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Ellie-ism & her 2 year checkup

Wow! I can't believe my little girl is now 2 years old! We had a great party over the weekend. A lot of people weren't able to make it, but we had a great time anyway....

Last night we were watching Ellie eat and she wanted more chips. We are really trying to get her to talk - she doesn't say a ton, but she's adding new words every day - so Chris prompted her to say, "Chips, please." No go. Again the prompt. Nope. Ellie, please ask for chips and then say please! Nothing.... Finally, Chris said, "Ellie, say please."


We roared! She had never said it before and said it perfectly - just really drawn out like, "Leave me alone! I want a chip!" LOL!!!

She had her 2 year appt on Monday. She's doing really well and charmed the doctor. She's just so sweet and generally well behaved. She was 90% for height (35.5" although I think it was actually 36") and 45% for weight (26lbs). All in all, a good checkup!

Sam's 2 month checkup

Only have a sec. I'll fill in later:

Sam now sleeps 5-6 hours a night! Yeah! And she slept 8.5 the other night. Wish this would become a trend. LOL!

Sam is smiling a lot - to me. Sometimes to others, but not as often at all. Ugh. I really wish she were a little more relaxed around others. She is also squealing at herself in a mirror

Was 23.5" for length (90%) and 9lb 13oz (25%?) for length.

She's doing GREAT. Tracking me and others. Very alert. Standing up when held! Holding up her head. Adorable.....

Monday, June 27, 2005

Words Ellie says

These are all from before she turned two and are in the approximate order she started saying them:

Baaa (as in what a sheep says)
More - sign - point at opposite palm
Food - sign - fingers to mouth
Moon - sign - wave hand in air
Eeeeee (what a cat says)
Arr arrr (what a dog says)
Need a diaper change - sign - pat diaper
Bye bye
Cheese (chee)
Done (duh) sign/word - raise both hands in air
Bath - sign - scrub body
Drink - sign - pretend to shake sippy cup
Please - sign - pat chest
Thank you - sign - tap fingers to chin
Duck (duh)
Apple (ackle)
Cracker (acker or cacker)
Dog (dah)
Dad (daa) She has been saying this forever!
Hot (haaa)
Itsy bitsy spider - sign - rub forefingers and thumbs together - similar to the real sign
Avocado (ac-ado)
Apple (apple!) She says it really well and will use it if she doesn't know other words!
Open (opah)
Banana - sign - peel other forefinger
Car sound
Mama Finally!!! Says it a lot!
Ball (Bah)
Balloon (Bah-oooh)
Book (boohk - very soft k)
Plane - sign - arms out to sides
Baby (for Sam)
Egg Odd since she's allergic!
Shoe Pointed at her foot and said it...

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

This week may be better than last....

I stepped on the scale and I was down to 190.5. I was at 192 a few days ago - and I was stuck at 195 for 6 weeks. So that's a start....

I also got an email from the people I did consulting for a few months ago - and they want me again! Yeah! I just have to make sure they pay me enough....


Okay, I've decided on my two goals for right now....

First one is to get into a size 12. I have no clue how long this will take me. But if I go by how much I weigh and how much I think I'll weigh at size 12, it'll be about 15 weeks. That puts it at.... Hmmm... let's see.... the beginning of October. Yikes! While that sounds *really* far away right now, I know time flies so I'm just going to keep going. This is the size goal.
The second one is to do a 5K. This is the fitness goal - for now. I would like to do one sometime in late July or August. A lot of it will depend on Sam and if I can do something like this without her freaking out. We'll see.....

For the record:
I'm 5'10" and 190.5lbs. Theoretical weight goal is 160. (This may change once I get close - depends on how I look/feel.)

left thigh 25.25" right thigh 25.125" hips 44.5" waist 40" chest 35" breast 43" left upper arm 11.25" right upper arm 11.375" neck 13.5"

YIKES!!! Well, I have to remember, I had a baby 8.5 weeks ago. Still sucks though....

Sam's pouts...

Sam is so funny! I noticed today that when I wasn't paying enough attention to her while holding her, she'd start pouting.... That lower lip would come out and she would look so sad! Then she would start to whine and eventually cry. Unless I started smiling and talking to her. Then she's smile back! Silly kiddo. So cute!

Although today was a tough day. She wanted the boob almost every hour. But she wouldn't eat much - just a snack - and fall fast asleep. So frustrating!!!
But she's still cute as hell....

Ellie and the (no so) terrible twos

She's so funny! She's definitely showing when she's upset - she'll hit at things....
But today when I got mad and yelled at her, she looked at me from the corner of her eyes.... And smiled. And smiled more. And grinned. And laughed.... And kept it up until I just lost it and laughed my ass off. She's so cute! I try hard NOT to react like that, but this time I just couldn't help it!

What a doll!

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Nope, shouldn't get excited. Grrr!

Now, her not sleeping through the night last night could have been the result of freaking out while mom was at the grocery store. While I was there, my cell phone rang. Uh, oh. Either Chris forgot something or......

Well, just as he was calling me to yell for help with Samantha, Ellie hurt herself. (Not badly, but definitely loudly! LOL!) So I high-tailed it to check out. As I was checking out (self checkout), he called back to say he had gotten Sam settled so I canceled checking out and headed back to get us food for dinner. (Hadn't made it that far.)

But Sam had freaked for a while and was very needy. I felt so bad for her! It seems that no one can really calm her except mom and mom's boobs. Chris tried a bottle, but no luck. She's come to the point where she's refusing them. Not good - no time at all for mom to get a break....
Don't get me wrong. I adore my daughter, but it's nice to have some time without having to worry about her. Ellie was definitely easier that way! Ah, well! It will all work out, I'm sure. (I have the feeling Sam will be more snuggly. That would be great!)

One other really bad thing I've noticed over the last few days - it seems that Sam has eczema. This sucks. I was hoping Ellie would be the only one. And I'm not sure if it's my imagination or what, but it seems much worse than Ellie's. So I'm slathering her up when I change her. I hate to do that, but it seems to make this better for her. She has her 2 month checkup in 1.5 weeks so I'll talk to the doctor then. Poor girl!

She's moved!

Yeah! I'm so excited! Ellie is in her new room. Now I can get Sam's room ready for her and try to get her used to sleeping in there during the day. (I have the feeling Sam will be in the bassinet or cosleeping until she's about 3-4 months old.)

Ellie was so cute. She got soooo excited about this! I'd been slowly moving her things into her new room and referring to it as her "new room" for a while. And while Chris and I were taking apart her crib, she was just spazzing! She was so thrilled to be moving!

Now I need to figure out what to do for decorating it. I was going to move all her shelves, but I think I'll leave 'em in her old room and get her some new stuff. I just wish I could go with her by myself to have her help me pick stuff out. I know I can do it with Sam, but I think it would be nice for Ellie to be with mom by herself and do it. Oh, well!

But since we might be moving in the next 6-9 months, it doesn't make sense to do a whole lot of decorating. I'm thinking I'll buy some bare wood shelves and paint them pink. Then I'll try to find some matching pink ribbon to hang the cute letters (E-L-L-I-E) that Laurie made as well as for on the cream sailcloth curtains I have. Now how I'm going to decorate the curtains, I have no clue. But I'm thinking the pink ribbon and some lions might be fun. She LOVES lions!
She's also trying more and more words. Yesterday she said "curly" and today she repeated "cool"! She's going to be talking in sentences soon, I hope!

And it just got shittier....

Well, that consulting gig I was hoping to get - I didn't.... Bummer. (He says more opportunities are coming up, but we'll see....)

My shitty week....

Well, this week has not been the best. I am trying to get some consulting work with the company I used to work with..... and I *still* haven't heard back. (They promised I'd hear by last Friday. Now they are saying this Friday. We'll see.) And no indication of whether or not I'll get it even though the guy I'd be working with really wants me to get it.

Then I got a call from the OB/GYN office. My PAP came back bad. I had had a bad PAP when I first got pregnant so they did another one. Bad. So then they did a colposcopy. Low dysplasia. Then another PAP. And another colpo. Moderate dysplasia. The doctor mentioned that there was a good chance that it would clear up after I had Sam.... But nope. Another bad PAP. So I get a colpo in a few weeks. Fun.

Then AF (Aunt Flow, that monthly visitor) decided to rear her ugly head. Yup, even thought I'm exclusively breast feeding (EBF), I get the joys of having to deal with her. Damn.

The day I got AF, I felt my sides - they were itching like crazy - and my skin felt weird... So I looked. Stretch marks! Explain this - why is it that I can go through an entire pregnancy and not get one, but I get them literally overnight for no apparent reason! Double damn. (Last time, I just used Vitamin E cream and they went away. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping the same is true this time.)

Then today I went to the dentist to get a filling. Only the tooth was cracked so badly they needed to do a crown. And when they were doing the mold, the crown next to it came off! I guess I should be glad that it happened at the dentists office, but it still sucks. So instead of it being about $200, it's going to cost about $1200! I know insurance will pay for some of it, but definitely not all. Grrrr.

Now I'm just waiting for the novacaine to wear off enough to eat. Hmmm, maybe this will help with the weightloss.

Well, off to upload some photos. Maybe that will cheer me up - lord knows I need it!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Sleeping through the night? Should I get excited?

Whoa! Three nights in a row! Wow! *knock on wood* Sam had slept from 5-7 hours each night. Luckily, only the first night was I truly engorged... And last night she actually slept in her bassinet. *whew* I love sleeping with her, but I just don't sleep as well.

She's also starting to kick things! I put her in the bouncy with Ollie the Octopus and she started kicking at him! Yeah! I don't remember when that's supposed ot happen, but this tells me that she's starting to really be aware of her body and that she can make it do things.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Ellie-ism II & update

Wow! I can't believe my little girl is almost 2 years old!! Wild... She is doing so well. The terrible twos are starting to rear their ugly heads. She will throw small tantrums from time to time when she doesn't get her way.

Yesterday she was wanting to put on some lotion and I told her she could have one more pump of it. So she rubbed her hands together and put the lotion on her belly and wanted more. I, of couse, said no... no more lotion. She threw a fit and walked away from me bawling her eyes out. She walked over to the big fern and hit it!

I immediately said, "We do NOT hit!"

She looked sheepishly at me then bent over to kiss the plant.....

She's definitely a card! But it took everything I had not to laugh at that.

The most exciting thing is the number of words she's adding daily! Today she repeated HOT DOG. Yesterday, it was KITE. The day before was APPLE BITE and APPLE WHEEL! She's also added TIRE, SHOES and several others! (So many that I'll quit listing her words in teh "lists" section.) After being so frustrated with her not talking, I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yeah!

I still see her getting frustrated, though. It's as though she's embarrassed to say things she doesn't know how to pronounce well. Chris thought that was silly - until he noticed it, too....
It's such a delight seeing her personality blossom. She's so wonderful!

We are currently in the process of moving her to her new room... I have the room almost ready for her to move into. I need to move all the stuff on her walls and get her bed and rocker in there. Oh, and put up curtains and a few other things, but the room is mostly cleaned out. It wasn't intentional, but it should be done by the time her second birthday is here. I hope she likes it! I think she will.....


Ah, Samantha! What a sweet little girl! I just realized that I hadn't put anything in here since her birth almost 2 months ago. Bad mom!

So... what's Samantha like? Well, I know they say not to compare your children, but I don't know how else to describe her.

She's snugglier than Ellie ever was. I could never sleep with Ellie because she was such a little wiggle worm. Sam, on the other hand, just loves to snuggle up most of the time.

She's also more needy than Ellie was. Ellie was content to just hang out most of the time. Sam loves to be held and loves to eat! I think the favorite place to snuggle is my boob. LOL! While I love this, it's kind of hard to do it all day. Don't get me wrong, Sam will hang out by herself, but is definitely interested in being held more than not.

She's also JUST starting to smile! I saw a few small ones over the weekend - that weren't associated with gas. She has such a gorgeous smile.... I can't wait to see the full blown ones!
She also seems to be way ahead developmentally. I know the doctor said that at 1 month, but I wasn't sure about that. Then I read WTETFY (What to Expect the First Year) and WOW! She's able to hold herself standing on her legs - not supposed to until 4 months or later. She turns to look at me and has since birth almost - again, not supposed to until 4 months. She will also look at others now, too! She's almost keeping her head in line with her body when pulled up. She LOVES looking at herself in the mirror that I hang over her on her gymini. She'll coo and jabber at herself for several minutes. It's so cute!

And I get so many comments on just how gorgeous she is..... She looks just like her daddy and her grandma Judy at this age. It'll be interesting to see if she looks like them when she grows up!

Oh, about her neediness.... I forgot to mention that she is needy for me! We have.... I mean, Chris has tried to feed her bottles for several weeks. And she has never had a bottle and been done. She's always needed to finish up with a quick nursing session. Ugh. No breaks for me. I am wondering if this is because of the bottle or because she just needs me...

But since I've started taking her into bed and co-sleeping, she's been sleeping 5-6 hours a night. No, I don't really like co-sleeping (no real issues with it) - I just don't sleep as well. And I don't get to snuggle Chris. That bums me out.

She's so funny, though. Yesterday I had to pump and I was about 15 feet from Sam.... And she kept waking up! When I covered myself, she would sleep. The second I started pumping again, she would fuss and wake up a bit. And she had just eaten! LOL! Amazing!

Whoops! Someone stirs!

General thoughts

So the thought for the day is: How do I remember to Blog stuff so I can keep track of it? I loved doing Ellie's pregnancy journal and it was fun looking back at it, but I really wish I had kept better track of all her milestones. So my goal is to track Ellie & Sam's milestones here....

Which leads to the second thought: How can I back up these blog entries? I need to figure this out so that I don't lose them. I would be crushed! ACK!

Other thoughts:
Photography.... I can't believe how much photography is on my mind these days. I am constantly looking at other people's photos for ideas.... Whether the photos are snapshots, serious amateurs or professionals, I love looking at all of them! They all give me ideas and thoughts.... I want so badly to do this professionally at some point, but don't feel I'm quite ready. I have so much to learn. (ACK! I need to look closer at Carol L's link. Free classes?!? How can you beat that?)

I need to try to get some good pictures of Ellie & Sam together again. I haven't gotten any in over a month. I have several snapshots and I'll always keep taking those, but I really want some nicer ones....

Thank yous.... Yikes, what a bad person I am! I have so many thank you cards half done or not done at all and I *need* to send them! Same with the announcements, but don't want to send those out until I send the thank yous.... (Not sure about the etiquette, but I'd be annoyed getting an announcement before the thank you if I gave a gift.)

Crested Butte.... Things are starting to move in that direction! Yeah! I would LOVE to move there. Last weekend looking at houses was so huge for me. It makes me realize it's closer and definitely going to happen. And it was so breathtakingly beautiful! This is where Sam's neediness can get a bit frustrating right now. I want so badly to just leave her with Chris for several hours and take a bajillion photos, but I can't really do that. She's definitely a momma's girl and would have a fit if she couldn't nurse to finish up before going to sleep!

Being a mom to two.... Wow! It's a lot of work, but man, do I love it. It's odd right now, though. I still really see Sam and Ellie separately. I think this is because they don't really interact. I can't wait until Sam is old enough that Ellie can teach her things and interact with her. I have the feeling they'll be wonderful friends. But right now, when I am with Sam, I only think of Sam. And same with Ellie - I only think of her.

The hard times come when they are both melting down... Sam (generally) wanting food and Ellie wanting more attention. Most days aren't too big of a deal, but some days (like yesterday), I'm so ready for Chris to get home and help out. And I look forward to a glass of wine to unwind! Yesterday was tough even after Chris got home - Sam wanted to eat almost from the time she and Ellie woke at 4pm until almost midnight. I thought today was starting the same way, but luckily she went to sleep....

But being a mom of two actually makes me think about number three! Crazy. I know, I'm crazy. Especially since I'd be 41 when #3 was born! Doubly crazy!

A few other Ellie things

I was thinking about my blogs and realized I forgot a few Ellie things!

The other day Ellie walked up to me with a package of new batteries and said "Bat"... Then she indicated that she thought we ought to put them in the battery case for Sam's swing. Blew me away since I didn't even know she'd paid attention when I was doing that!

She knows how to take her clothes off and (mostly) put them back on again. I need to start seriously potty training!

She jumps up and down like crazy.... Both feet only hitting the floor once before launching herself back into the air. Over and over and over. It's hysterical!

She also walks up and down the stairs one foot one each step - just like an adult. No hands!
She LOVES the main theme from Winnie-the-Pooh as well as Itsy Bitsy Spider and will listen to them for HOURS on end. ACK! (Chris and I call it "IBS" so as not to remind her that she may want to listen to it...)

Monday, June 06, 2005


Today Ellie dropped her spoon on the floor. And since we we've been doing "please" and "thank you" for a while, I asked her what she said if she wanted her spoon...

She said, "Uh, oh!"

Monday, May 23, 2005

Another long, skinny girl... (1 month checkup)

Anyway, just got back from Sam's appt. She's doing great! She's 22" and 8lb 11oz so her growth is perfect for the chart. She's got the development of a 2-3 month old in terms of eye contact and physical abilities. (I think it's closer to 2 and not a 3 month old based on my videos of Ellie.) She smiles a ton, but just when sleeping or going to sleep or pooping. But I still love 'em and can't WAIT til she smiles in response to me and others!

Only *slight* issue is her hip clicks. She has to go in for an u/s to check those out within 2 weeks. They are VERY minor and honestly, I'm not concerned... My doctor is just very conservative with getting 'em checked.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Quick Sam update - sleepy baby

So.... when I went into the doctor today, she said she had wanted to see between .5 oz - 2oz weight gain a day. I took her in on Tuesday so that should have been about 4.5 days.... Well, she gained 10.5oz!!! OMG! I'm SHOCKED and so was the doctor! She said I had super milk.... (I told the doc we were feeding her breakfast sausage. LOL!) (She's only 1oz shy of birth weight - she's doing GREAT.)

The things that (I think) helped us out the most:

  • Feeding from one boob each session (I couldn't do it for several - killed me). But I think that extra hind milk helped.
  • "Chucking" her under the chin
  • Waking every 3 hours instead of 2
  • Changing diaper when she stopped. Or cleaning umbilical cord. (She hates both of those.)

So I get to let her sleep at night! I'll probably still wake her some during the day if she goes too long (more than 3.5 - 4- hours), but I won't worry at night anymore. YEAH!!!!

Samantha Birth Story - Part 1 - Not labor

So, where do I start? Do I start with going into labor on 13th? Falling on my belly on the 10th? I think just a quit recap of the 13th….

I woke at 1:15am on the 13th to contractions that weren’t really regular, but definitely woke me up… I got kind of excited thinking that not only was it Gwenan’s birthday, but that was also Chris’ dad’s birthday. And if Baby Dos was a boy, his name would have been Samuel Douglas – after Chris’ dad. How perfect to have “him” born on his namesakes birthday!

So Chris stayed home since nothing seemed to be stopping any of the contractions. I did manage to get about 1.5 hours of sleep starting at 6:45 and was happy about that. Then, since the contractions were still going on, I called the doctors office and was told to come in at 10 to get checked.

Instead of being not effaced or dilated, I was happy to be 1cm dilated - barely – and a little effaced. So we headed to the mall to walk around and try to get things going. Well, they did! Man, was I in pain for a while – unreal. I bought a muumuu to wear and some crocs shoes that were amazingly comfortable and I felt much better. So we walked some more around the mall and the contraction got to 3 minutes apart and very regular and pretty painful. (I thought.)

Into the car and off to Porter hospital…. But shortly after I got in the car, they slowed back down and I had a sinking feeling. And rightfully so. I got there and hadn’t effaced or dilated since the morning. So after checking me out, I was sent home. And had stopped most contractions by this time.

The next week plus was filled with contractions on and off and I knew they weren’t doing much – except keeping me awake and wearing me out.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Ellie and Sam are so sweet together!

I love how sweet Ellie is to Sam. She'll pat her on the head, point to her eyes and say HI all the time! She's such a wonderful big sister. And things seem to be going well so far.... Hopefully they keep up!

Ellie is just becoming more goofy as time goes on! LOL! She'll jump around and hop and squeal the funniest squeals - just to make us laugh. She'll make silly noises or faces and just crack up at the funniest things. I love how animated and fun she is!

Sam is the sleepiest baby! I thought Ellie was, but man, was I wrong.... It's hard to get her awake, but her eyes are the bluest blue when they are open. I would love for them to stay that way! She's just so gorgeous - I can't wait to have her be awake more often to truly see what her personality is like.

I still can't get over having two daughters. And yet it feels so right and wonderful. I love it!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Samantha Birth Story - Part 3 - Labor and Birth!

It was a fitful sleep until about 10am. *Yawn* I wasn’t sure if I could handle another few weeks of this kind of contracting and that little amount of sleep.

So I got up to post on my June board and the contractions starting coming again. I was just trying to work through them – I figured this was all another false alarm. Chris brought me some English muffins while I tried to mess around on the computer.

At about 10:30, Ellie saw mom and wanted to come hang out with me so I headed downstairs and brought my computer with me. I still hadn’t managed to do much more than send an email.

Chris looked at me and asked what we needed to do. I said not to worry – I’d let him know. The contractions were getting worse, but I didn’t want to call out the forces only to find out that nothing was going on. But by 10:45 I knew things were a little different. I started feeling ill and headed to the kitchen sink. I asked Chris to take Ellie out – I was going to throw up. Sure enough, bye-bye breakfast. And while I was throwing up, I felt a gush. I grabbed a hand towel and assumed it was just urine. But then again – it could have been my water.

I told Chris that it could have been my water breaking and headed to the bathroom to pee. No more fluid came out – just pee. So I started to head out of the bathroom to go upstairs for new panties and that’s when things got worse. (Looking back, I really do think that my water broke.) And I told Chris to call in the reinforcements.

He called his sister, Laurie and pretty much everyone else. I just contracted and slowly made my way upstairs to get new panties. Then eventually back downstairs to pack up my computer. Ellie was downstairs watching Leapfrog Letter Factory and enthralled.

Doing those few things took me more than 30 minutes. The contractions were incredible. They were about 3 minutes apart and would peak and come down, but not go away. I would literally only have about 15-30 seconds to be functional – and about 1 minute to be able to talk, but still in some good pain. I was wearing some huge, ugly night gown and my purple crocs – and I didn’t care!

After talking to the doctor, we packed into the car and headed off – very painfully. Just going down our bumpy road was awful. Going through the corners on 285 caused intense pain. Chris was awesome – he helped remind me to breathe through everything. I seriously doubt I would have remembered to if it hadn’t been for him – he was so wonderful.

While driving, Chris called everyone. This was definitely it. I was NOT coming home from the hospital without a baby! He kept telling everyone “Andi has that look – it’s time”. Or “She’s lost that lovin’ feeling” If I hadn’t been in such pain, I probably would have cracked up!

We got to the hospital exactly 12 hours after our last trip there – about 12:00pm. (We were at Swedish the night before and again this time. My doctor wasn’t on call so we had Dr Bowman.) This time there was NO way I was walking up to the room as I had the night before. I could barely breathe through the contractions. But at least the ride was smoother than the right to the hospital!

We got up to the room (room 5 – same as the night before!) and I promptly threw up some more. I heard the nurses rushing around saying “she’s in active labor, let’s get things together”. They had to help me change clothes since I couldn’t even fathom helping myself. These contractions were so different from anything I had with Ellie or earlier. Still coming on top of each other with no real break – I was in pain all the time – just varying amounts.

They got me into the bed and checked me – 3-4cm. No clue how effaced. When I heard that, I made the decision to get an epidural. There was no way I was going to be able to make it for hours like that. Too much pain. As it was, the hour before I got the epidural (I need to ask Chris how long it was – it might have been longer) was excruciating. Unreal. Poor KT was trying to say hi and rubbed my arm or something and I motioned “GO AWAY” to her. I was NOT even close to being interested in any niceties. I only wanted Chris touching me. He was the one I could hold onto and know I was going to make it. My mom helped quite a bit, but honestly, it was Chris that helped me the most.

Finally, the epidural guy showed up at about 1:30-1:45. I had to lay on my side and curl up. Wow. That was tough! When I was contracting (at least two while he was doing this), it was incredibly painful and difficult to curl up. Chris was there the whole time helping me deal. (I think everyone else had to leave the room.) Getting epidural was pretty painful in other ways too – the tube going in wasn’t fun. It hurt like hell and hit nerves a few times. They did numb me for it, but it wasn’t fun. But in the whole grand scheme of things, I was fine with it!

And then life was much better. I could think and move and be aware again. Heaven indeed. I now understand why getting one is such a great thing for most women. (I had such a bad experience with Ellie’s epidural that I was terrified of this one. Well, until it got to the point I couldn’t deal with the pain. Then it wasn’t terrifying – it was just something I was going to get and deal with later.)

I never had my blood pressure drop. They were very aware of what the problems were that I had earlier so they were pretty careful and everything was perfect!

But them my contractions slowed almost to a halt so they hooked me up to some Pitocin.

I think the doctor showed up at about 2:30-2:45 to break my water – and she found that my bag was gone! I talked about this with the nurse later and we thought it might have been shortly after the epidural. Later I realized it was probably when I got sick at home.

But when the doctor checked me, I was about 4cm and fully effaced.

So everyone came back in the room – KT, mom and dad. (Chris was there most of the time.) And they proceeded to take “bets” on my contractions. It took a while for the contractions to build back up, but they’d watch the monitor and guess how high the contraction would go… And harass me if it wasn’t above 50. They are so funny!

About 3:45 I started feeling a lot of pressure really low and thought, “I need to get checked – I think I’m close.” Next contraction, same thing. Next contraction I asked Chris to have the nurse check me. She came in at about 4:10 and she looked at me and said, “Oh! The baby’s head is right there – you are 10cm. And the doctor has gone home! You’re going to have to try to wait to push until she gets here.” So she turned off the Pitocin and turned up the epidural and I breathed through the desire to push until about 4:35.

Everyone came back in the room and I told them what was going on…. Then I asked everyone but Chris to leave and we spent a few minutes just with the wonder of it. We were about to have another child!

That short time with Chris is really precious to me. It was so different from with Ellie’s birth. Everything was so rushed and almost scary with hers, but this was so much calmer and I was able to just absorb what was going on. And to spend those few minutes just absorbing the moment before birth with Chris was amazing.

We asked everyone to come back in until the doctor got there. (Mom was going to be in the room for the birth.) And we all just sort of enjoyed those few minutes chatting and wondering and guessing about Baby Dos’ sex! Everyone said boy. Poor baby Dos!

The doctor got there and dad and KT were kicked out of the room and things got set up. It was a little surreal. With Ellie it was CRAZY getting everything together. With Sam, it was much more sedate. They got a mirror set up, the bed broken down, me into position, mom got cameras ready, the nurses got the baby station ready, but it was very calm and done methodically. They asked if I could feel enough to push – and I thought I could. Turns out I couldn’t tell when I was contracting unless my hand was on my belly. Weird.

So we waited for my first contraction and I tried pushing with Chris and the nurse counting. I pushed and the baby moved down quickly. Pushed 3 times….

Break while a few things were discussed. I was busy concentrating so I don’t even know what was going on. (Have to watch the video.) Another contraction and pushing 3 times with baby moving, moving.

I was so afraid of getting an epidural because of losing the feeling. But this was amazing and perfect. I could feel everything. I knew were the baby was and I could tell when I was pushing harder, the baby was moving. But there was no pain. Just the feeling of the baby moving down was incredible….

Then another contraction and push, push, push and I saw and felt the head come out! No pain, just the feeling of it leaving my body…. Mom said, “It’s a big head! It’s gotta be a boy!” The doctor suctioned out the nose and mouth and then pulled the baby out and said, “Wrong! It’s a girl!”

The whole room erupted in laughter and amazement – Chris and I had another daughter! We had no clue…. I was *sure* it was a boy! But the most amazing thing was that there was absolutely no disappointment for either of us. We already had one wonderful daughter – how could another daughter be a disappointment?

They put her on my belly and she was gorgeous! I didn’t think she was that blue, but seeing the little bit of the video made me realize she was…. Not as bad as Ellie, but still not good. Everything was fine, though. They had her with a little bit of oxygen for about an hour or so and she pinked up and was fine.

We, of course, kept getting asked what her name was. We said we had no clue! Chris at one point said to me, “The names that keep popping to the top of my list are Lillian and Samantha.” This amazed me – not 10 minutes before I had been thinking that I loved the name Samantha.

But it wasn’t until later that evening that we finally settled on it for sure. And I love the name!
Since then, she’s been a delight. She looks identical to Chris as an infant – almost in a scary way! She latches well and when she sucks, she’s a great nurser. I doubt we’ll have many breastfeeding issues if things continue like that. (*knock on wood*)

Today was when she met her older sister. Grandma Judy was holding Sam when Chris came in to say Ellie was there… Mom brought her in, unbuckled her and she came in. I think she was overwhelmed by all the people and shyly stood at the entrance to the room.

But the thing that got me was my reaction – I immediately had tears streaming down my face. I missed Ellie so much I couldn’t believe it and picking her up and having her lay her head on my shoulder made me just melt. I am mom to two beautiful little girls. It was so odd being so “into” Sam and just absorbing my new daughter and the feelings I am learning for her and then having Ellie come in and my well known feelings for her just rushing to the forefront. And how those two work together – or rather, don’t quite yet – was wild. The next few weeks are going to be interesting to see how my feelings change and develop – for both of them….

Samantha Birth Story - Part 2 - Maybe labor?

On the 22nd I went back to the doctor and was very disappointed to find out that I was a “loose 1cm” instead of a tight one. I knew it was going to be a while longer… Bleh…. But when I stopped at the hobby store on my way home, I started getting more random contractions. These hurt but were not regular.

I got home and let Laurie, our nanny, go home. Then Ellie and I packed up and headed to the grocery store. Not fun! I was contracting and contracting painfully, but not regularly and certainly not having any fun. But I made it and got home to put away all the perishables.

Got Ellie into bed for a nap and I climbed into the hot tub – ahhhhh, relief! I kept having pain on the right side in the middle for some odd reason and climbing into the hot tub just relaxed that. It was just something that seemed to cramp up and didn’t really release and was painful for a long time. Ugh.

The second I climbed out of the hot tub, it hit again, but it calmed down when I climbed in bed. I was so tired so I lay down and read. I read for a while, chatted with my brother Doug and let the contractions get more regular. They got to be about 7 minutes apart and I was starting to get excited again….

Then I called Chris and asked him not to go out after work – I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to watch Ellie with the contractions I was having. It was very hard for me to even put her into bed that afternoon!

By the time he got home at 6ish, I was having 5 minute regular contractions. They hurt, but I could talk through them and do whatever for the most part. By 7:30 or 8 they got to about 3 minutes apart… About the same intensity as they were at the mall so I wasn’t freaking out until I chatting with Heather and Gina from my June board… So I started thinking about calling the doctor about 10. The contractions had been regular for quite a while and weren’t going away.

Chris put Ellie down and we started putting everyone on “alert”. Called Laurie to come watch Ellie and got our bags packed up.

We headed to the hospital at 11:30 and got there about midnight. After getting checked in, they checked me and I was about 2cm dilated and 75% effaced – which was good since I had changed since the morning. So it was off to walk the halls and try to get things going even more….

Mom and dad showed up and the four of us walked the halls for about an hour or more. I had more mucousy show while walking so I was sure things were going on, but unfortunately they weren’t. Back home again with me very upset. More because mom and dad drove up and Laurie had to wake up in the middle of the night to take care of Ellie. And I had to go back to my board and break the bad news – Dos wasn’t coming yet.

We got home at about 3:45am and I was asleep by 4. With lots of bad dreams about contractions. Only to wake and find that I wasn’t dreaming. But I’d go back to sleep and slept through a bunch of them until about 7.

Friday, April 22, 2005

39 Week appt

From a post on 4/22/05:
Well, I went from a barely 1cm to a loose 1cm. LOL! Not much, but at least it's something. You would think with all these contrax that SOMETHING more would happen, but that's the way it is. Must be my uterus gearing up to just POP this baby out....
Doctor seems to think this baby will be bigger than Ellie - and so do I. Not a lot, but if Ellie was 8lbs (almost) and she thinks this baby is bigger... YIKES! It could be another 2 weeks - ouch! So I asked her if the baby had a small head. She laughed and said that it felt bullet shaped. LMAO!!! She thought the baby would just SHOOT out. She's funny.....

Oh, and the baby is definitely head down. With all the movement I feel, I was a little worried about that..... She also offered to strip my membranes, but I said no... It didn't work with Ellie and I don't think my body is quite ready. I might do that next week, but not now. (I know several of you think I'm goofy! LOL!)

Going into labor posts

Rather than do each blog from my old blog, here they all are:

April 23
Baby is coming

3:11 PM

Chills & contrax
Mom, dad, KT and Chris are here. bp is good -105/77. Bad chills.
3:04 PM

Water broke!
We don't know when, but my water broke. Got internal contrax monitor. Not too many contrax so I got pitocin. .. Yuck, but oh, well..
2:12 PM

Got epi
Very tired. Taking nap. 3-4cm dilated
1:17 PM

Fwd:On the way to the hospital!
Well, Laurie got to the house about 11:30 and we finished packing up the car and headed down. Contractions are 3-4 min apart. Painful, but not horrible.from fir night - Oh! Asked my mom to be in the roomduring delivery... She was pretty psyched!i'll try to update as i can...
1:15 PM

Sent me home
First of all, weird. I sent this from my phone originally, but it didn't.
I walked with mom, dad and Chris for over an hour and had some tough contraction and more goopy stuff.... But when I got back ot the room, all my contractions slowed back down - and when I was checked, I hadn't changed. I was still about 2.5cm and 70-80% effaced. The baby was a -2 station - still high.
1:45 AM

April 22
2.5 cm 75%
I'm actually dilating and effacing, but not in actual labor.... I'll walk around to try to get things going a bit more. I may be here earlier than i needed, but i really think this is it!
11:43 PM

More contrax
And they are about 5-7 min apart. This could be interesting - or not.
8:04 PM

Contractions again....
Okay, I'm trying not to get too excited or think that anything is *really* going on, but I'm having an interesting day. Had some *major* discharge with a brown tinge. (Yeah, gross, but true.) And I've had some odd and very painful contractions. Most have been just whenever and in the front right - and very painful.
But just a short bit ago they started getting more regular - every 7 minutes. (So far I"ve had 4 at this interval.) We'll see. I'll call Laurie and put her on alert before 9pm if they keep up. I hate to get her all excited, but if there is any issue with her coming up here, I need to know so I can make sure we have a backup plan. (She's not been feeling well.)
I'll try to update more when I can!

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

I *might* have dropped a *tiny* bit

Or rather Baby Dos may have dropped... having to pee a lot more and feels smaller and more pressure way down low. I can only hope....

Still tons of contractions - and was really down emotionally yesterday. But doing much better today. Surprising since I didn't sleep well. Too many dreams about my water breaking! I can only hope.....

Monday, April 18, 2005

Contractions, but nothing much. Bleh

Well, it's been 5 days since our trip to the hospital. Honestly, I thought the baby would be here by now based on everything. I have contractions all the time - some rather painful. But nothing regular. Bah! Not fun!

I'm hoping that I'm losing my plug, but you never can tell for real. I'll just keep up the few things I'm doing and hope something works.......

All right, Dos, quit being so stubborn!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Sending me home...

No change. This is, after all Dos! Maybe they'll pick back up later...


Well...... Friggin cervix isn't doing a darn thing! Probably going home to try to get things going. I'll be here for another hour or so,though, just in case....

I actually wasn't that shocked. Everything got MUCH easier to deal with once we got in the car and headed to the hospital. And even after walking around for a long time and climbing stairs, I still didn't have any contractions that were even close to what I had at the mall.... Bummer

3-5 minutes apart

Headed back to doctor to check things out! We walked around the mall for a long time and they slowly, but surely got more and more regular...

I had a few *really* bad ones (or was it one long horrible one?) when we first got to the bookstore. Man, I thought I was going to die! They were all on the lower right, for the most part. But when I went to the bathroom and pulled my pants down, they were MUCH easier to deal with because they spread throughout the lower abdomen instead of being in just one place....

So when I told Chris, he decided to help find me a mumu! LOL! We got to Motherhood Maternity and the lady was FREAKED that we were there! I think she thought my water would break and I'd have this kid in there. But she was nice enough to help me find a denim jumper. Not the sexiest thing, but whoa, was that a relief to get the pressure off my belly.

We walked around some more and walked past a shoe store where some dude ran out (he was a customer) and said, "You HAVE to try these Crocs on! They are amazing!" I had heard about them and I wasn't as comfy as I could have been so I did.... And loved them! Chris was finally conviced and we both got some - I got purple and he got beige.

And we continued our journey through the mall. We walked in one shop and there were some women who were SHOCKED i wasn't at the hospital when I told them that the contrax were 3-5 minutes apart. But they just didn't feel quite ready yet....

But they did about 20 minutes later. That's when I decided it was time to go to the hospital!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Ellie is really the sweetest thing around!

I love my daughter with all my heart. Not that there ever is any question of that, of course! She's so adorable and sweet and FUNNY and smart and... and....

The things I love about her right now:

  • The way she will walk goofy and then turn to see if I'm looking at her. She'll do it on her tip toes or with her knees bent or just step big with one leg and shuffle with the other and look at me sideways with a goofy grin. It's hysterical!
  • She loves to share! She will feed me some of her food, then eat some, then feed me some more. If someone walks in, once she feels comfortable with them, she will offer them someting - her toy, a piece lint from the floor, some of her food, a sip of her drink....
  • When I ask her if she needs her diaper changed, she'll walk toward her room - then, while I'm getting a diaper, she'll laugh and watch to see me then start walking away.... and then run once she sees me coming laughing her head off! LOL! She LOVES to be chased!
  • She loves when her dad comes home. She gets sooooo excited to see him and will run to the door if I ask her if daddy is home.
  • She will hug and kiss me more and more. She does this with dad, too. She grabbed his face tonight and kissed him. So sweet!

But I think the thing that melted my heart the most was her reaction to Baby George, who was born yesterday morning. Although it too her a much longer time to relax around everyone in the hospital room, once she did, she was quiet, well behaved and sweet with everyone. But when Baby George started crying, she got so upset! She just sobbed and wanted me. Huge tears rolled down her face and she was looking at me like "why is he crying? I'm so sad that he's so sad!"

Later in the evening, my mom took Ellie out in the hall, the boys went downstairs and Gwenan had to go to the restroom so I held George. When Ellie and mom came back into the room, mom put Ellie next to me and George.... I was blown away with how sweet she was to him! She gently touched his hair and head, she touched his face and patted his hands... With the most amazing touch.

I can't wait for her to meet her little brother or sister! She will love him/her and be the BEST big sister ever.

I love my daughter with all my heart!

Random ramblings on Dos

Although I've been excited, I wouldn't say it was high on the whole scale of excitement. I dont' know if it's been because of being so nervous about Dos for so long or just because I'm so busy with Ellie.... But I just haven't been really excited like I was with Ellie. It's not that I was dreading or unhappy or anything like that. It was more like "I'm having a baby in a few months... Okay. Cool. I'll get excited later."

But then I went to the hospital last night to see baby George... and my SIL was trying to get him to breastfeed.... And she was beaming and excited. And my sweet husband was so happy to see this precious life. And I realized.... I'M GETTING EXCITED! I want to breastfeed. I want to do it longer and feel more relaxed about it. I want to take pictures and really see him or her grow. (Me? Take pictures?!?) I want to sleep in our big king sized bed with Dos and Ellie and my DH during a lazy Saturday afternoon. Then cozily feed Dos while everyone else is snoozing. I want to see how Ellie does with Dos. (She was amazing with George! Sooooo gentle and sweet. She sobbed when he cried for food - like she just felt so bad that he was so sad - and it was so heart wrenching and sweet! She touched him like he was a fragile little baby.....)

I just am getting excited. And I want to meet him or her! I want to see if this is a little rambunctious boy or a little sweet little girl. And if it's a girl, I want to know what her name is! LOL! I want to see if he or she looks like me or Chris or is really just a combination like Ellie. I want to know if Dos is going to be easy or needy or somewhere in between.....

And it feels good. I hope this feeling sticks around for a while, but I doubt it. But I do know it'll be back in force when the time gets close so I don't worry about it.

And I know baby Dos will be loved by everyone in this house. (No, there weren't any doubts, but it was wonderful seeing Chris and Ellie's reactions.)